Today is bittersweet for me, for my little girl is officially a teenager. Even though I have been counting down for the past few months, it has happened to fast. I guess being a teenager is a right of passage, but it still makes me sad.
Can I say that Kai is my best friend? No, not right now. And no, not because she is a teenager and she is trying to challenge me (although she does try it occasionally). She is not my best friend YET. Right now, I am her mother. The person that says "No, you can't do that". The one that says "Clean your room". And a lot of other non fun things. In a few years, when she is off to college, or maybe when she herself is married. That is when she will be my best friend. And it is coming soon enough.
In the mean time, I will cherish all of the memories and how proud and happy she has made Buddy and I. I will not take her smile for granted. I will appreciate that smile, because even when she is having a horrible day, she never wipes that smile off of her face. I will ingrain in my head, how her hair smells when she randomly gives me a hug. I will ingrain in my head the messages that she leaves me on my phone. And I will ingrain in my head the little girl voice that she still has. And moving forward, I will stop being in awe of the fact that she is a teenager, and I will enjoy the coming years. For although she is officially a teenager, in my eyes and in my heart, she is still my little girl. My sassy little girl. Happy 13th Birthday Kai!! We love you so very much.
Can I say that Kai is my best friend? No, not right now. And no, not because she is a teenager and she is trying to challenge me (although she does try it occasionally). She is not my best friend YET. Right now, I am her mother. The person that says "No, you can't do that". The one that says "Clean your room". And a lot of other non fun things. In a few years, when she is off to college, or maybe when she herself is married. That is when she will be my best friend. And it is coming soon enough.
In the mean time, I will cherish all of the memories and how proud and happy she has made Buddy and I. I will not take her smile for granted. I will appreciate that smile, because even when she is having a horrible day, she never wipes that smile off of her face. I will ingrain in my head, how her hair smells when she randomly gives me a hug. I will ingrain in my head the messages that she leaves me on my phone. And I will ingrain in my head the little girl voice that she still has. And moving forward, I will stop being in awe of the fact that she is a teenager, and I will enjoy the coming years. For although she is officially a teenager, in my eyes and in my heart, she is still my little girl. My sassy little girl. Happy 13th Birthday Kai!! We love you so very much.
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They grow so fast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!